boys are very cute but they are evil

Anatomy, 60x60 cm, acrylic & brocade on canvas
Just a rant

I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY MY SELF ESTEEM AND SELF WORTH HAVE LITERALLY BEEN AT ZERO LATELY. I’m a nice girl, I don’t deserve to feel like that. I don’t deserve to feel like nobody likes me. I don’t deserve to feel like I’m not good at anything or that everybody thinks I’m annoying. I know all this but I still can’t shake the feeling and I hate it, I hate it so much. I don’t understand my mind or my hormones or whatever. I just want to be happy [with myself especially] again. FUCK YOU BRAIN FOR NOT LOVING ME LIKE I THINK I SHOULD LOVE ME.
Just feeling like such a hypocrite because I tell everyone how great they are and how they should all love themselves, and I know God loves me and thinks I’m perfect, but for some reason, all of a sudden, that’s not good enough apparently. No matter what I tell myself I can’t deny what I really feel and think lately. Blah blah blah rant over.

sexual tension is weird

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Title: Breezeblocks (Split)
Artist: Alt-J